This week has been a challenge. Pain has escalated and I’ve had to up my painkillers, but even with that the pain just won’t diminish.
I’m used to pain. I reckon I’ve built up a fairly good tolerance to it. The thing is that in the past suffering from so much pain would have sent me into a dark place. I’d hide from the world and feel sorry for myself. I’d catastrophise and think “I’ll never get better”.
This week has been different. I’ve noticed a big change in the way I’ve dealt with the pain. Yes I’ve had some moans (just ask hubby) but I’ve also been a lot more positive. It hasn’t even felt like an effort, it’s just sort of happened. I’ve accepted that the pain is bad, that I need to up my painkillers and that I will need to sleep even more than usual.
It feels good to be able to deal with it. I’m proud of myself. To be honest it’s made it a bit easier to deal with the pain and its effects when I’m not surrounded by black clouds.
So I’m going to keep plodding on, staying positive and I’m sure I’ll get there in the end (wherever “there” might be).
Keep smiling….it sounds cheesy but it does help.
*signs off to snooze*
Have you made any resolutions for 2013? I’ve never been very good at resolutions so this year I have made one … to be more positive! It isn’t exactly a particularly measurable resolution, like vowing to lose 2 stone, but it’s something that I know I have to do. How will I measure it? I’m not actually very sure, but it’s only day 9 and already I am catching myself being negative and dealing with it before it spirals out of control.
Recently I’ve been thinking about life. Life in general. Something heartbreakingly sad made me stop and take stock. As many of you know I like to tweet and blog. Over the past couple of years I have found some wonderful blogs. One such blog is multiplemummy.com. Sadly Kerry, aka multiplemummy, passed away last month. She was 30. She leaves her husband and three young children. I can’t even begin to imagine what her family are going through and I send them my deepest condolences and very best wishes at this incredibly sad time.
Life is fragile. We only have one shot at it and we never know when our journey will end. So if this is the way my life is to run, if I never get better, I am going to make the most of what I can do and stop focussing upon my weaknesses.
Rest in peace Kerry.
Please take the time to look at the Just Giving page in memory of Kerry.